Thought of The Day

How do one motivates oneself?

I have been in this sense of being demotivated for months now and it is such a struggle for me day by day. It's like a feeling of wanting to shrink away from reality, away from the world, away from everyone.

It's a feeling that I wish I can overcome with but as time goes by it seems that I have lost the will to fight. Living for me is like a fantasy and that I wasn't really there. That I'm on a auto-pilot mode and never really awake.

I'm so immuned and that there will be times that I can feel pain so bad until I went numb with it and what I did was just to push it aside and never really think of it as pain. I learn to let go of things which caused me pain and I even learn not to feel any emotion when I deal with someone which can bring me pain as well. I learn to cast aside that person and simply move on with or without that person.

I've come to the point where I'm so determined to move on with my life with or without the people to whom I want to share my life with, be it with friends or love ones. I learn to love myself and be friend with my ownself whenever I face problems and whenever things get tough.

Life for me is like a fairy tales and that I'm no longer surprise at what life has in store for me each day. At least I don't rant about things and I don't think negative whenever things get rough and tough for me.

I have been reading the news and the comments on each of these news, and it saddened me that people are so twisted in the mind sometime. In there, they will rant and whine about things maybe simply because of the pleasure of mocking other people or trying to soothe their ownself by poking fun at others.

I guess life can be difficult, for that I have to agree but for me I simply refuse to succumb to negative thinking and be a negative person. I may live on a auto-pilot mode and that is for me as a tool for survival. Being this way, it keeps me on my feet to survive this harsh world. Others I guess, chose a different mode to survive. I'm thankful though and I'm still sane enough to think things through. My thought of the day "Live and learn".